So, I got some cool news today: After being placed on the TAPIF waitlist (as all returning assistants are) I’ve finally been accepted to teach at the primary level in the Académie d’Aix-Marseille!
When I reapplied to TAPIF, I decided that I would only go back if it was for a good reason. Yes, it’s fantastic to be young and un-attached and travel and do whatever, which would be reason enough for some…but I’m getting to the point where I’m tired of living temporarily, figuring things out one year at a time. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t regret a single thing about doing TAPIF the first time, and I wouldn’t change that year for anything. But coming back afterwards, I felt like I had taken a gap year from life and found myself pretty much back at square one in terms of being a poor, unemployed recent college grad, while many of my friends had a full year of ‘adulthood’ under their belts.
I want to live in France again. I miss the language, I miss the lifestyle, I miss everyday being an incredible discovery, even when that discovery was just finding out the French word for colander (it’s passoire, in case you’re wondering). But I don’t want to feel like I’m going backwards just to get there.
I’ve been thinking about getting licensed to teach elementary ed in the U.S. I’ve been sending lectrice applications to French universities. I interviewed for a job teaching middle school drama at my old middle school. I’ve looked up French immersion schools in the area. I’ve considered teaching myself Spanish since it seems like the only foreign language people (read: employers) care about in the U.S… I haven’t made up my mind about anything yet, but I think I’m finding my way.
At this point, it’s not necessarily “all roads lead back to France” for me….but many of them could! So while I’m WICKED excited to have this opportunity on the table, and especially to be placed in my top preference académie, and obviously knowing that the details are going to remain up in the air for too many more months… I’m trying to stay calm and regulate my reaction a little bit.
And thus concludes my Debbie Downer post about perfectly positive news!! Stay tuned! ❂